The days count down, the trip to-do list grows (but with continued persistence at checking things off), skype check-ins every week or so when he's back in internet range, logistics, tying up loose ends here, making sure we have everything we need for this trip.
I'm moving to Panama for five months, the first two of which
will be spent with a new man in my life. We're delving into the couple-travel territory. And I don't mean couple vacations. I mean travel. The daily stresses and daily miracles we'll encounter while traipsing across foreign countries with backpacks on back, folding kayaks rolling in tow, checking out new towns, finding adventure on and off the water, writing about it, filming it, sharing it! Making plans to go spontaneously! Now here's a test to see if this relationship is meant to last! Long have we both dreamed of finding 'the one' that isn't looking to tie us down, long have we both dreamed of journeying this globe with lover in hand, dreamed of finding that person who's comfortable enough to stay behind while you solo journey through the wild bush for a couple months, always ready for you to join on the next adventure. Lovers of no fixed address.
will be spent with a new man in my life. We're delving into the couple-travel territory. And I don't mean couple vacations. I mean travel. The daily stresses and daily miracles we'll encounter while traipsing across foreign countries with backpacks on back, folding kayaks rolling in tow, checking out new towns, finding adventure on and off the water, writing about it, filming it, sharing it! Making plans to go spontaneously! Now here's a test to see if this relationship is meant to last! Long have we both dreamed of finding 'the one' that isn't looking to tie us down, long have we both dreamed of journeying this globe with lover in hand, dreamed of finding that person who's comfortable enough to stay behind while you solo journey through the wild bush for a couple months, always ready for you to join on the next adventure. Lovers of no fixed address.
Am I anxious? Hell yeah. Am I roused with anticipation?! Hell yeah.
I'm completely intimidated and inspired by this man. Am I going to make it through this with him? Am I going to have the stamina, the strength, the insight, the capacity to participate in this undertaking? I hardly know how to fish, I haven' t kayaked for days at a time, never mind weeks at a time, I secretly suck at building fires...these are things he does for a living. I worry I don't measure up. I'm worried he's going to see the real me very quickly, and realize he's dealing with a total amateur. Yes, I worry about how I'm dressed and if I match, yes, I am terrified of the sight of blood, and yes, I let pride get in the way of truly feeling vulnerable. But I promise I'll try my best to keep up :)
Still, I am so anxiously excited to get going on this adventure! Here is someone who loves to travel as much as I do, who can meet me on spiritual, intellectual, philosophical, creative, and playful levels...and I crave these shared moments with him! I have so much to learn from him in all aspects, not only the adventuring. I just expect that it goes both ways. What can I teach him?
I'm completely intimidated and inspired by this man. Am I going to make it through this with him? Am I going to have the stamina, the strength, the insight, the capacity to participate in this undertaking? I hardly know how to fish, I haven' t kayaked for days at a time, never mind weeks at a time, I secretly suck at building fires...these are things he does for a living. I worry I don't measure up. I'm worried he's going to see the real me very quickly, and realize he's dealing with a total amateur. Yes, I worry about how I'm dressed and if I match, yes, I am terrified of the sight of blood, and yes, I let pride get in the way of truly feeling vulnerable. But I promise I'll try my best to keep up :)
Still, I am so anxiously excited to get going on this adventure! Here is someone who loves to travel as much as I do, who can meet me on spiritual, intellectual, philosophical, creative, and playful levels...and I crave these shared moments with him! I have so much to learn from him in all aspects, not only the adventuring. I just expect that it goes both ways. What can I teach him?
There will be highs and lows, challenges and learning, laughs and tears, frustration and facilitation.....through it all, a commitment to each other, to growth. So I say bring on the shared adventures.
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