Day 4 - January 30, 2012 (First Rest Day)
Breakfast: pancake mix made with powdered milk, no eggs, topped with peanut butter, jam and honey
Almond tree |
While eating breakfast though, I find myself distracted and staring off in space. I leave the rest of my breakfast to Jaime and get up, walking down to the waters edge to be alone. I feel an overwhelming need to cry. I’m emotional all over again but this time it’s nothing to do with kayaking. I’m finding that Jaime is triggering a lot of old issues for me over my ex, and it leads me down a path of worry and sadness about family, ex-lovers, future babies, friends‘ babies, stuff that just doesn’t make sense right now but is rearing it’s head for me to take notice and sit with it. I can’t even release the tears (Wendy, I’m thinking of you here and laughing uncomfortably at that statement!) so I think that I can go back to the tent to sleep it off.